{"status":true,"post":{"id":47075,"user_id":6,"status":1,"type":1,"orde":null,"notification_type":3,"static_post":0,"published_at":"2024-01-02 07:47:00","created_at":"2024-01-02T04:47:00.000000Z","updated_at":"2024-01-02T04:47:00.000000Z","edited_at":"2024-12-17 22:35:21","source_id":null,"post_id":47075,"is_featured":0,"title":"\u2018Hakikatin ortas\u0131nda kald\u0131m\u2019","slider_title":null,"slider_title_2":null,"slider_spot_title":null,"slider_spot_title_2":null,"home_title":null,"sub_title":null,"category_id":73,"description":"DR. \u0130LHAM\u0130 FINDIK\u00c7I","content":"


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Bir aile \u015firketinin kurucu babas\u0131n\u0131n il d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki toplant\u0131s\u0131 bitmi\u015f, ailesiyle eve d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. E\u015fi ve iki \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla ara\u00e7ta sohbet etmek istedi. Ama her zamanki gibi konu\u015famad\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ileti\u015fimleri daralm\u0131\u015f, ortak hedefleri zay\u0131flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Anne ve iki evlad\u0131 telefonlar\u0131na \u00f6ylesine dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 ki, direksiyon ba\u015f\u0131ndaki baban\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu ve arac\u0131n ara ara savrulmas\u0131n\u0131 bile fark etmediler. Baba, kapanan g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131k tutmak i\u00e7in bir benzinlikte durup y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama bu da yeterli olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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O\u011flu bir ara kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p \u201cKaza yapmasak bari\u201d demi\u015fti. Kazadan \u00f6nceki son s\u00f6zlerdi bunlar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Hafif ya\u011fmurlu havada karanl\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn devam eden toplant\u0131lar\u0131n bedensel ve ruhsal yorgunlu\u011fu ve uykusuzlu\u011fu \u00fczerine saatlerce ara\u00e7 kullanan baba, dar viraj\u0131 fark etmedi ve direksiyon hakimiyetini kaybetti. Ara\u00e7 h\u0131zla bariyerlere \u00e7arpt\u0131, sonra savruldu Yan yatan ara\u00e7ta baban\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 bariyerlere \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015f ve a\u011f\u0131r yaralanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Di\u011ferlerinde hafif s\u0131yr\u0131klar vard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Kazadan sonra aile \u00fcyeleri \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k ve tela\u015f i\u00e7inde ne yapacaklar\u0131n\u0131 bilemediler, h\u0131zl\u0131 hareket edemediler. Epeyce bekledikten sonra \u00e7evredekilerin yard\u0131m\u0131yla hastaneye kald\u0131r\u0131lan baba, yolda kan kayb\u0131ndan \u00f6ld\u00fc. Peki, \u015fimdi ne olacakt\u0131? \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her \u015feye ko\u015fan baba art\u0131k yoktu. Aile, hayal d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p kendi ger\u00e7ekleriyle ve hayat\u0131n hakikatiyle bulu\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu ac\u0131 tecr\u00fcbeyle.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Cenaze i\u015flemleri, \u015firketin idari i\u015fler m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc taraf\u0131ndan yap\u0131ld\u0131. Aile \u00fcyelerinin akrabalar\u0131yla aras\u0131 iyi de\u011fildi. Zaten \u00e7o\u011funu da tan\u0131m\u0131yorlard\u0131. Vefat eden baban\u0131n gen\u00e7 o\u011flu; cenazenin bir g\u00fcn hastane morgunda kalmas\u0131n\u0131, ertesi g\u00fcn mezarl\u0131klar m\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclmesini, y\u0131kanmas\u0131n\u0131, nihayet \u00f6\u011fle namaz\u0131na do\u011fru semt camisine getirilmesini bir film gibi d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan izliyordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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HAK\u0130KAT\u0130N ORTASINDA\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/p>

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\u015eirket m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc, gencin kula\u011f\u0131na e\u011filerek babas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda beklemesini s\u00f6yledi. Musallan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bekleyen gencin g\u00f6z\u00fc, tabutun \u00fcst\u00fcndeki ye\u015fil \u00f6rt\u00fcdeki yaz\u0131ya tak\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cHer canl\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tadacakt\u0131r. Sonra bize d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcleceksiniz.\u201d (Ankeb\u00fbt\/57)\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Bu ayeti defalarca okudu i\u00e7inden. Ve ilk kez babas\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00f6z\u00fcnden ya\u015flar akmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Anbean i\u015fleyen zaman\u0131n ve her dem yeniden kurulan hakikatin tam ortas\u0131ndayd\u0131 27 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7. Musallada yatan babas\u0131n\u0131n cans\u0131z bedeni \u00fczerinden hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 yakalamak istiyordu. Beyni al\u0131\u015f\u0131k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin h\u00fccumuna u\u011fram\u0131\u015ft\u0131 adeta.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Cami avlusunda babas\u0131n\u0131 seven ve son yolculu\u011funda yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmayan yo\u011fun kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 seyrederken \u201cNe \u00e7ok seveni varm\u0131\u015f babam\u0131n, ben bu sevginin neresindeyim?\u201d dedi kendi kendine. Ve babas\u0131yla ili\u015fkilerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>

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Mezuniyet gecesinde istedi\u011fi arac\u0131 almayan babas\u0131na k\u00fcs\u00fcp evi terk edi\u015fini, y\u00fcksek lisans i\u00e7in yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir y\u0131l kal\u0131p sadece bir sertifika belgesiyle d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde babas\u0131n\u0131n hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u015firketin bir bayiden alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tahsil etmek i\u00e7in gitti\u011fi \u015fehirde iki g\u00fcn kal\u0131p ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 paray\u0131 harcamas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131 mutlu etti\u011fi bir an\u0131 hat\u0131rlamak istedi ama bulamad\u0131 ve h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klara bo\u011fuldu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Cenaze arac\u0131na binip kabristana do\u011fru giderken bu derin \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn en \u00e7ok kendisine ait oldu\u011funu fark etti. Babam\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in \u00e7aba g\u00f6sterseydik, hep k\u00fcs olmasayd\u0131k, ben, annem veya ablam son yolculu\u011fumuzda arac\u0131 kullansayd\u0131k biraz, zaman\u0131 geri getirebilsem ke\u015fke, olanlar r\u00fcya olsa ke\u015fke...<\/span><\/p>

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Arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arac\u0131yla camiye d\u00f6n\u00fcp taziyeleri kabul eden aile i\u00e7inde yer alan gen\u00e7, babas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131k tekrar etti\u011fi; \u201cAilemiz her \u015feyimiz\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Ve zihninin ne kadar da bo\u015f bilgilerle ve ba\u015fkas\u0131na ait verilerle doldu\u011funu fark etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Kendisine \u00e7ok k\u0131zd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Zira sadece t\u00fcketmek i\u00e7in ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kimli\u011finin s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hayat\u0131n temel ger\u00e7e\u011fi olan anlam aray\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan kopuk oldu\u011funu, k\u0131sacas\u0131 insan olmaktan ne kadar uzak oldu\u011funu fark etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Hi\u00e7 kimseye bir faydas\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e kahroluyordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Ve bu derin ac\u0131dan yeni bir kimlikle do\u011fmak, insan olman\u0131n erdemiyle dolmak istiyordu. Sanal d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fgal etti\u011fi zihnini temizlemek i\u00e7in kararl\u0131yd\u0131. Yitik aile de\u011ferlerini yeniden in\u015fa etmek i\u00e7in ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yollar\u0131, tan\u0131mlar\u0131 ve k\u00fclt\u00fcrleriyle de\u011fil, kendi aile ve toplum de\u011ferlerini temsil etmenin aray\u0131\u015f\u0131na girecekti art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>

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G\u00fczel d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmler ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, bereketli bir sene dilerim.<\/span><\/p>","slug":"hakikatin-ortasinda-kaldim","tags":null,"meta_title":null,"meta_description":null,"meta_keywords":null,"news_cover_min":"\/front\/uploads\/blog\/thumbnail\/17041428007RpvfVOY6ZcnMVo.webp","news_cover":null,"news_video_min":null,"news_video":null,"view_count":1374,"cropped_1200x675":null,"user":{"id":6,"name":"\u0130LHAM\u0130","surname":"FINDIK\u00c7I","email":"kerem49@gonultas.org","slug":"dr-ilhami-findikci","avatar":"\/front\/uploads\/avatar\/17336916007TlCwM70HUjW9XY.webp","status":1,"role":1,"email_verified_at":null,"orde":null,"created_at":"2022-09-15T09:39:41.000000Z","updated_at":"2024-12-18T10:21:29.000000Z","seo_title":null,"seo_description":null},"translations":[{"id":47201,"is_featured":0,"is_amp":0,"is_ads":0,"ads_link":null,"post_id":47075,"locale":"tr","category_id":73,"title":"\u2018Hakikatin ortas\u0131nda kald\u0131m\u2019","home_title":null,"sub_title":null,"slider_title":null,"slider_title_2":null,"slider_spot_title":null,"slider_spot_title_2":null,"subtitleuse":0,"description":"DR. \u0130LHAM\u0130 FINDIK\u00c7I","content":"


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Bir aile \u015firketinin kurucu babas\u0131n\u0131n il d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki toplant\u0131s\u0131 bitmi\u015f, ailesiyle eve d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. E\u015fi ve iki \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla ara\u00e7ta sohbet etmek istedi. Ama her zamanki gibi konu\u015famad\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ileti\u015fimleri daralm\u0131\u015f, ortak hedefleri zay\u0131flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Anne ve iki evlad\u0131 telefonlar\u0131na \u00f6ylesine dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 ki, direksiyon ba\u015f\u0131ndaki baban\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu ve arac\u0131n ara ara savrulmas\u0131n\u0131 bile fark etmediler. Baba, kapanan g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131k tutmak i\u00e7in bir benzinlikte durup y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama bu da yeterli olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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O\u011flu bir ara kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p \u201cKaza yapmasak bari\u201d demi\u015fti. Kazadan \u00f6nceki son s\u00f6zlerdi bunlar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Hafif ya\u011fmurlu havada karanl\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn devam eden toplant\u0131lar\u0131n bedensel ve ruhsal yorgunlu\u011fu ve uykusuzlu\u011fu \u00fczerine saatlerce ara\u00e7 kullanan baba, dar viraj\u0131 fark etmedi ve direksiyon hakimiyetini kaybetti. Ara\u00e7 h\u0131zla bariyerlere \u00e7arpt\u0131, sonra savruldu Yan yatan ara\u00e7ta baban\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 bariyerlere \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015f ve a\u011f\u0131r yaralanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Di\u011ferlerinde hafif s\u0131yr\u0131klar vard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Kazadan sonra aile \u00fcyeleri \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k ve tela\u015f i\u00e7inde ne yapacaklar\u0131n\u0131 bilemediler, h\u0131zl\u0131 hareket edemediler. Epeyce bekledikten sonra \u00e7evredekilerin yard\u0131m\u0131yla hastaneye kald\u0131r\u0131lan baba, yolda kan kayb\u0131ndan \u00f6ld\u00fc. Peki, \u015fimdi ne olacakt\u0131? \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her \u015feye ko\u015fan baba art\u0131k yoktu. Aile, hayal d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p kendi ger\u00e7ekleriyle ve hayat\u0131n hakikatiyle bulu\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu ac\u0131 tecr\u00fcbeyle.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Cenaze i\u015flemleri, \u015firketin idari i\u015fler m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc taraf\u0131ndan yap\u0131ld\u0131. Aile \u00fcyelerinin akrabalar\u0131yla aras\u0131 iyi de\u011fildi. Zaten \u00e7o\u011funu da tan\u0131m\u0131yorlard\u0131. Vefat eden baban\u0131n gen\u00e7 o\u011flu; cenazenin bir g\u00fcn hastane morgunda kalmas\u0131n\u0131, ertesi g\u00fcn mezarl\u0131klar m\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclmesini, y\u0131kanmas\u0131n\u0131, nihayet \u00f6\u011fle namaz\u0131na do\u011fru semt camisine getirilmesini bir film gibi d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan izliyordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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HAK\u0130KAT\u0130N ORTASINDA\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/p>

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\u015eirket m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc, gencin kula\u011f\u0131na e\u011filerek babas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda beklemesini s\u00f6yledi. Musallan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bekleyen gencin g\u00f6z\u00fc, tabutun \u00fcst\u00fcndeki ye\u015fil \u00f6rt\u00fcdeki yaz\u0131ya tak\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cHer canl\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tadacakt\u0131r. Sonra bize d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcleceksiniz.\u201d (Ankeb\u00fbt\/57)\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Bu ayeti defalarca okudu i\u00e7inden. Ve ilk kez babas\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00f6z\u00fcnden ya\u015flar akmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Anbean i\u015fleyen zaman\u0131n ve her dem yeniden kurulan hakikatin tam ortas\u0131ndayd\u0131 27 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7. Musallada yatan babas\u0131n\u0131n cans\u0131z bedeni \u00fczerinden hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 yakalamak istiyordu. Beyni al\u0131\u015f\u0131k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin h\u00fccumuna u\u011fram\u0131\u015ft\u0131 adeta.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Cami avlusunda babas\u0131n\u0131 seven ve son yolculu\u011funda yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmayan yo\u011fun kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 seyrederken \u201cNe \u00e7ok seveni varm\u0131\u015f babam\u0131n, ben bu sevginin neresindeyim?\u201d dedi kendi kendine. Ve babas\u0131yla ili\u015fkilerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>

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Mezuniyet gecesinde istedi\u011fi arac\u0131 almayan babas\u0131na k\u00fcs\u00fcp evi terk edi\u015fini, y\u00fcksek lisans i\u00e7in yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir y\u0131l kal\u0131p sadece bir sertifika belgesiyle d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde babas\u0131n\u0131n hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u015firketin bir bayiden alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tahsil etmek i\u00e7in gitti\u011fi \u015fehirde iki g\u00fcn kal\u0131p ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 paray\u0131 harcamas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131 mutlu etti\u011fi bir an\u0131 hat\u0131rlamak istedi ama bulamad\u0131 ve h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klara bo\u011fuldu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

\u0130\u015fgal alt\u0131ndaki zihinler<\/span><\/p>

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Cenaze arac\u0131na binip kabristana do\u011fru giderken bu derin \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn en \u00e7ok kendisine ait oldu\u011funu fark etti. Babam\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in \u00e7aba g\u00f6sterseydik, hep k\u00fcs olmasayd\u0131k, ben, annem veya ablam son yolculu\u011fumuzda arac\u0131 kullansayd\u0131k biraz, zaman\u0131 geri getirebilsem ke\u015fke, olanlar r\u00fcya olsa ke\u015fke...<\/span><\/p>

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Arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arac\u0131yla camiye d\u00f6n\u00fcp taziyeleri kabul eden aile i\u00e7inde yer alan gen\u00e7, babas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131k tekrar etti\u011fi; \u201cAilemiz her \u015feyimiz\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Ve zihninin ne kadar da bo\u015f bilgilerle ve ba\u015fkas\u0131na ait verilerle doldu\u011funu fark etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Kendisine \u00e7ok k\u0131zd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Zira sadece t\u00fcketmek i\u00e7in ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kimli\u011finin s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hayat\u0131n temel ger\u00e7e\u011fi olan anlam aray\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan kopuk oldu\u011funu, k\u0131sacas\u0131 insan olmaktan ne kadar uzak oldu\u011funu fark etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Hi\u00e7 kimseye bir faydas\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e kahroluyordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

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Ve bu derin ac\u0131dan yeni bir kimlikle do\u011fmak, insan olman\u0131n erdemiyle dolmak istiyordu. Sanal d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fgal etti\u011fi zihnini temizlemek i\u00e7in kararl\u0131yd\u0131. Yitik aile de\u011ferlerini yeniden in\u015fa etmek i\u00e7in ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yollar\u0131, tan\u0131mlar\u0131 ve k\u00fclt\u00fcrleriyle de\u011fil, kendi aile ve toplum de\u011ferlerini temsil etmenin aray\u0131\u015f\u0131na girecekti art\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>

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G\u00fczel d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmler ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, bereketli bir sene dilerim.<\/span><\/p>","slug":"hakikatin-ortasinda-kaldim","orjinalimage":"\/front\/uploads\/blog\/thumbnail\/17041428007RpvfVOY6ZcnMVo.webp","news_cover_min":"\/front\/uploads\/blog\/thumbnail\/17041428007RpvfVOY6ZcnMVo.webp","news_cover":null,"news_video_min":null,"news_video":null,"cropped_638x552":null,"cropped_310x208":null,"cropped_416x247":null,"cropped_197x247":null,"cropped_416x600":null,"cropped_1200x675":null,"tags":null,"meta_title":null,"meta_description":null,"meta_keywords":null,"view_count":1374,"yt":0,"ytid":"","ytimage":null,"imgdate":"2000-01-01 00:00:00","cuff_cover":null,"cropped_358x214":null,"cropped_842x474":null}]}}